echocardiogram

Took her to get an echocardiogram the yesterday for a heart murmur the doc heard. They hooked her up to wires, did an EKG. Then they did an echo. They pointed and mumbled at the pulsing colors on the screen. They took notes. Then the doc came in and checked their notes and made more of his own. They conferred some more. Various dire scenarios went through my head.

Back in doc’s office, Phoebe dressed again. Josh holding her. Doctor facing us with his notes, looks up and says, “Well, she is totally normal. It is a functional heart murmur. A normal heart.”

I nod. I am so relieved I feel numb.

I proceed to walk into an open file cabinet and cut my forehead open.